"Regret" is a word that's armed with a pitchfork. Tormenting me these past few weeks with who I could've been and who I am now. Bits & pieces of my past (since my pre-teens) have been re-surfacing and it's only left me paralyzed. I have to literally & consciously snap myself out of it before I get into an accident. Thinking about who I am now because of choices I've made, opportunities that I let pass and dreams I didn't hold on to tight enough.
"I wish" are two words that follow closely after the first with an aftershock of sigh. My whole body rivets through with where it could've been compared to where it is now. I can only hope to not wish for more but for less. Less of looking at my footsteps & less of picking at my character. Which is btw quite battered. Less of the pain I feel when I look at the still photographs of my life, though the glue that keeps my eyes to those photos seem to be of the super kind.
"From now on" are three words that annoyingly stick to the last two. Speaking of sticking, these 3 words are like chewing gum. The more you chew the less the flavour. Spit it out? There's always a new stick. Try a different flavour! It's a limited edition. When, oh when will my character weather the storm?
God, You promised me. (Are four words) [:
